What is about a Sunday morning? Maybe laying on the bed ,enjoying the nice room temperature and sing the "Don't want to do anything "song. But it's not for me. The fact is, I spent an hour under the hot sun, to see a little girl demonstrate how stubborn a human can be.
She kept crying over some simple tasks that i told her to perform, and she can't stop "warning" me not to touch her legs (nor hold them). By doing all this actually hinder her from learning the proper swimming skills. And frankly, she is wasting OUR time. Her mom paid rm40 for THIS hour to see her learning something, but she did not, not for now nor the previous lessons .
I can feel the sunlight burning my skin, on the back of my neck and on my shoulder. I feel so helpless to handle this "screaming baby". How I hope to end this lesson as fast as possible, at least to save my burning skin.
I just cannot tahan with myself. If I would have more wisdom and love for her, or some sense of humour would help,maybe?
Well, this is not merely an hour of doing "part-time job", after all it is more like a life time lesson. The mom paid it with cash, and for me, the sunburnt skin paid it off.
Do you see the stubborn-ness of yours stopping you from achieving the goal that set ahead for you? Do you see the price that paid to correct you, and to see chance in you?
I was so touched to see the way of her sister loving her. she thinks of all kind of methods to guide her, and to encourage her. It is so gentle and so soft, unlike the mind of a human that hope to finish the lesson earlier and end this crazy moment. Well, it is always nice to have a sister.
I really wish that she can remember the moment that the "umi" and the sister loving her, and one day when she grow up, knowing the fact love brought her up and shape her life.
I hope for the best to see changes in this little girl, and in me, for the cognition of love.
P.S: I seldom talk about my part-time job.it's nothing to boast about the money, but knowing that God always come into picture make it all different. =)
#Part 2#
For the whole day I felt so kesian for myself, for the outcome of the efforts which is unseen,or unappreciated.Well, I know it best, the brain start processing things in a pessimistic way when the heart thought that it's getting tired. ( Was rushing for 3 swimming lessons in a row since 4 pm, trying hard to make it all on time but the parents who have no sense of punctuality almost broke the chain of the tight schedule down, and I must make sure everything of a birthday celebration is alright beforehand, kinda crazy but yet this make me feel so much alive!!!)
I can't even enjoy the food when I finally settle down. The happiness of the people around didn't fill me up, i was so exhausted until I finally reach my room and read this.
Ah Jie you are so lovely (and farney enough!) and you made my day!
You are the one that cares for me and you have been the support for the days along. I just could not express the gratitude deep in my heart.
And this is the thought for the beginning of this journey.
I always think that leaving the place and people that I'm familiar with is the best way to see things better,that's why i want to go New Zealand. But yet I'm grateful with another decision that i've made ,that is to be really serving the CG. It makes me feel so much alive.Though it might be weary at times,but i would definitely miss it a lot when I leave Malaysia. I'm thankful that Sze Jie was chosen as the ACGL, she is the one who really care, indeed, I thank God for her presence in this season of my life.
And last but not least, You are the reason that I serve.
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| I love you, GCB the burgerss!!!! |
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