最後的尊嚴

是不是一個友好的表示都足以讓你透不過氣？

我應該停止向你施壓。

這樣我也可以瀟灑一點。

留給自己最後的一點尊嚴。

最后的战役

终于在星期五4.30pm把Thesis呈交上去了，翻着自己的“杰作”，感觉就是“爽！”

这辛苦的“一星期不眠不休”之役终于熬过去了。

虽然我是last minute work, 不过我真的有All-out的。接下来的部分，真的只求有个不错的分数，可以好好毕业。

期待7月1日的VIVA，接下来就是吉尔吉斯坦之旅。

离梦想更靠近一步。

I surrender

I thought it would be the answer that makes thing clearer. But now, at least for this moment, it make no more sense to me.

My life has been a MESS since 2 months ago.

 i just can't wait to put an end on it.

Has been disappointed so many times with my own expectation.

yes,i failed to keep on to the promise, because i'm so emotion-being.

because the love i can offer is so conditioned.

i can't find any reason to keep it on.

i need to move forward.

you used to say that you don't want to mislead me.

but you never knew that holding back itself is so hurting.

thanks for everything you have done for me, i shall  hope for no more.

I'd surrender everything,

to feel the chance, to live again.

无题

原来无条件去爱一个人是不可能做到的。

说好了不要有期待，所以也不会失望。

我做不到。

在我最难受的时候，你都不在。

我跌倒了又再重新振作，也许我真的不需要你。

可是有一天当我累了，放手了。请纪念我曾经对你的好。

Stop PROCASTINATING your work.

5.54am  彻夜未眠，终于完成了First Draft。

9点钟有个Psychology的Presentation，我现在是一点头绪也没有。三小时，希望可以挽救局势。

你偷走太多光阴了，现在你自食其果。

我觉得在这样下去我真的有一天会暴毙。

Stop PROCASTINATING your work.

问你到底还要为此付出多少代价？

五月天，会苦尽甘来的。

11.20pm  毕业论文最后阶段进行中。因为我自己管理时间不妥当，去不成Gunung Jerai，因此白白损失了RM140, 我真的很恨我自己。这就是花钱买教训。

无论如何，为了不辜负上学期多个日子的心血，为了顺利毕业，我只好这样了。

五月天，会苦尽甘来的。

估计这星期也是必须牺牲睡眠了。我竟然把自己推到这个极限。

Now Or Never, Do it or Die.

至少不要耽误毕业就好。

夜，我和你拼了。





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Rest.self-examination

1st of may.labour day.it spent me whole day to finish 5 lab reports in a row.productive?no!!!consequence of procrastination! (Supposed to submit by April)

Repeatly listening to At the cross .do self-examination at the same time.feel peace.gonna be a crazy month.preparing my heart.

What is that mean to be at REST? In God's presence=)