旅人与她一场美丽的邂逅 - 吉尔吉斯斯坦 (Kyrgyzstan) By LeeShan Lim

我在上篇提到，这趟旅程我很有幸认识到了几位“臥虎藏龙”的智慧女性。她们包括了领队林俐，慧茹（Hy)，婉珍(Wan Chen)，丽珊，Kean Eng，Lee和Chui Fund。她们丰富了我的视野，让我对生命有更多的认识。这篇文章，我是从丽珊的墙上偷过来分享的，她写得太好了，完全表达了旅人对这片土地的依恋。我啊，在文字的表达上还要多下功夫才由这个水准。

朋友们都有共同的问题:
这个国家在哪里？她的名字怎么念啊？怎么会想到去这个国家旅行？ 
在还没听过之前，我还真的不知道她是中亚国家。 她的名字，在还没走完这段旅游程之前，我还真的不知道怎么念。有时，想旅行，出走，不需要有太多的因为和理由。就在没有太多的因为，没有期待下， 我遇到了期待以外的惊喜与现象。

吉尔吉斯斯坦是中亚的一个突厥语系内陆国。她的周边国家有：北与哈萨克斯坦相连 (Kazakhstan), 西界乌兹别克斯坦(Uzbekistan)，南同塔吉克斯坦接壤 (Tajikistan)，东南和东面与中国相接。90%的领土在海拔1500米以上， 为高山国家。

我在这里与她的大自然，天气，环境，人。。有了一场美丽的邂逅 - 蓝天，白云，草原，繁星，月落，大山，大湖，冷风，细雨，冰雹，地震（在梦里？），松林，马，牛，羊。。 

蓝天白云下，一切事物，在镜头下似乎都有了生气。 当在大山大美景前，我了解到，有相机跟没相机在手，都一样无助。

高原上辽阔的草原，让视野更加开阔。 仿佛一切都无局限，一切都有其可能性。 

在寒冷的夜幕下，我以为可以很潇洒的以天为幕，已地为席，慢慢的细数繁星。但。。但。。实在太冷了。 内心挣扎了一回，走出游牧包，仰头看各就各位的星光。。。啊！星星都已经到齐了！此刻一无罣礙， 一心一意，只看星星，如此逍遥自在的时光，除了谢天，我还能说什么？

在这没看到日落，却无意间看到了月落。 才高挂上空的上弦月，夜深时已悄悄的沉落於湖的另一端。 原来地球真的转得好快， 原来时光确是在飞逝。 我仿佛看到时光诡密的行踪，一场时光的演义。 我不禁在想，我们是不是总在犹豫不决与恐惧中蹉跎岁月？

人到了某个阶段，总喜欢看大山，大湖，大河。。。当懒得计较与生命无关的琐碎小事，当微小的事物越来越模糊。 

徒步在冷风飕飕 ，细雨纷飞，天降冰雹下。。这个又是谁招来的冤情呀？

我曾看过一句诗：“放尔千山万水身”。 意思是说， 放纵你那原来属于千山万水的生命而重回千山万水中去吧！ 
也许，在我们灵魂深处都余留著几世前的记忆，对大地深山大漠夕岚的记忆。 需要我们走遍天地，把它们一一连接回来。

身未动，心已远。 身已动，心更远。 

二0一三年 七月 寒冷的夏天 吉尔吉斯斯坦
丽姗

注：两天的马背之旅，我几乎没有拍到一张照片，因为一开始我学不会驾驭马儿，还被祂欺负。加上骑在马背上时挂在脖子上的相机随着马儿的步伐不断上下颠簸，一开始就被吓坏的我手紧紧握着马缰不放，根本顾不了对焦拍照，干脆把相机收进包里，专心欣赏沿途壮丽的风景。二来，本人拍摄技术不到家，拍不出马夫们和马匹们的气势。第三，当我终于懂得“操控”马儿，我却浮现一个自私的念头：我要独自占有这段马背之旅的记忆。我会分享风景的照片，可是我个人认为这次骑马的初体验，是很私隐的，是镜头下的的画面无法呈现出来的，而且是不值得去炫耀的。可是我错了，当我看见丽珊的“马儿Collection”出来时，我顿时哑口无言，图像在某种程度上还是保留了当时的震撼感，带我们回到最初的那种感动。无论如何，我没有后悔当时我选择了放下相机，因为我的拍摄技术还需恶补，还好有丽珊这位专业的摄影师弥补了我的遗憾。以下所有是丽珊的作品。

*嘻嘻，我不应该称你们为“老人家”的，不过那是个没有恶意的玩笑，请多多包涵。你们的人生历练和谦卑的心也是在旅途上让我大开眼界的一部分。给你们一个大大的 “哇！” =）

Kyrgyzstan: A humbling journey

八月，从吉尔吉斯坦带回来的一身尘埃也已经掉落满地，我却迟迟未动笔。一来是我需要时间平复刚抵步时那种失落感（毕竟是人生第一次搭飞机出国，而且一飞就到一个这么棒的地方），二来是必须马不停蹄地为友人们准备在七月底的槟岛之旅（我还当策划和导游呢！）。

在面子书上与朋友们分享这趟旅程的照片，有人对这个陌生的国度惊艳得很，（很欣慰从此他们晓得这片国土的存在，并对她有了一些认识），也有人论断说这趟旅程根本就是仅仅花钱去看山看水。无论如何，对我而言是别人的看法只是他们表面的见解，关于吉尔吉斯坦的点点滴滴，只有亲自用足迹踏在那片土地上才会有更深刻的体会。而文字加上图像，就是旅行最扎实的记录。

所以，尽管无法及时在记忆最犹新的时刻把故事写下来，我还是坚持要以文字完成这段宝贵的旅程。

在吉尔吉斯坦只呆了短短的12天，可是这片土地带给我视觉上的惊艳和思维上的更新，却是持续性的。因为旅行带给我们的，不只是脚步停下就定格住的记忆，她是与我们的生活一同并进的。

感激这段旅程上成为为岁月洗礼的事物，当然最重要的是我遇到的人和他们留给我启发思维的话。

谢谢，吉尔吉斯坦-毕业旅行。

不枉此行，不留遗憾。

走进像童话一样的世界。不真实，却美得让我不知所措。

冬天般的夏天，遇见了对事业充满热忱的Ernist，在一片白雪茫茫的山上，心里除了兴奋，还有说不出对生命的感激。

You used to shine so brightBut I watched all of it fade

“只是我往前行，他不在那里；往后退，也不能见他。
他在左边行事，我却不能看见；在右边隐藏，我也不能见他。
然而他知道我所行的路；他试炼我之后，我必如精金。约伯记 23：8-10

So I pass the good deed on

Can't believe that I do this. Hehe, It was last Saturday that I've decided to be a Santa Claus. So I bought all these to bless my sister-sister kesayangan. Jojo the elephant lover who bought  ice-cream for me the day before has inspired me to give to others.

So I pass her good deed on and I kinda modify her idea. Haha. My original plan was just to bless my beloved labmate Hidayah, she is going to do her viva presentation 2 weeks earlier which is falls on this Friday as she will be flying to Sabah at 26th. I know It is going to be a tough week for her to prepare for exam and the viva presentation altogether. Somehow God has placed a heart in me to encourage her, as she has been kind to me throughout the days in our FYP lab.

Her passion for the labworks really amazed me. As we always has the negative comments about our majority neighbours that they are lazy, irresponsible and etc, Hidayah is the one that I have so much to learn from. She really planned for her FYP and she managed to fit it into her packed schedule even with the extra workloads requested by our supervisor. Imagine she is a navy member and yet she can finish everything (including labwork and thesis) far more earlier than me. I would say it's about her time management.

I remember last time I used to bear the hard feeling for another chinese girl in our lab, I didn't talk to her or even when I have to, I talked in a bad manners (because I really beh tahan with her). One day Hidayah approached me in the class and talked to me about this. I turned my face away and refused to admit it. But she was such a peace-maker that want to see me make up with that girl. I felt so ashamed of myself in front of her for being that childish. I was supposed to be the salt and light of God but I took away the peace in that friendship. She tapped on my shoulder and gave me a smile. She is such a living testimony for her God.

Another thing that I liked about Hidayah is that she never show muka masam when she is tension or unhappy, her muka ceria always encourage the people around her. I really love her smile. What a kind soul that she is.

Hence during that Saturday, even I still have a lot more chapters to study for the paper on this Monday, I went to her room and SURPRISE her with my love letter and chocolate. It wa so great to catch up with her in her room. I felt so encouraged afterward when I found that my little action meant so much for her. She thanked her God for me, and she really appreciate what did for her. I was almost in tears when I saw her picture on Instagram. It was just a little footstep but it makes a big move.

I thought of my little Burgersss when i picked the chocolate for Hidayah. So I get 7 packs  of chocolate sekaligus at the end of the day. Haha.

To be honest, gift is not my very own love language but I always willing to do this for others, because it is the heart that matters =) It was through Jojo and Fong Wan that I see the cost of efforts when you really love for someone, as compared to the time they consumed for others, buying gifts is just a small matter=). I'm willing to bless others with what I have because I have already blessed with a high income part time job. I remember 2 years back then I was such a kedekut person that love to RECEIVE (in any form), hence I'm glad that at least for now I'm able to GIVE.

I was so sorry for my CG members because I have so little time to spend for them. Hence this is the chance that I can do something to encourage them,why not?

I was a happy girl that went to knock at Burgerss's door and see their surprised faces. I thank God for the good weather that I'm able to travel around and do the delivery.

Because I'm well-blessed to bless.

Just hold on for a little bit more!!!

Woke up at 7am, can hardly open my eyes. Damn sleepy while waiting for En.Roslan, feeling worse after I get into the car. Tried to stay alert and pray hard throughout the journey, just another 2 more hours, I can do it. All the way to Seberang Jaya.

Was not doing well until I jumped into the pool, every single cell of my body WIDE AWAKE. Felt so refreshed in the cool water. It feels the same everytime to be back in the water again =).

Today I got to demonstrate some lifesaving skills to the PBA group, an all-male group. Just some simple skills but they are so interested. Felt grateful of what have I learnt, saving lives becomes our common purpose. Sometimes I can get too numb with the purpose of doing lifesaving but instead we focused so much on timing and the skills itself.

Talked to one of the guy with Mat Salleh look ( forgot to ask his name), he is so humble. He saved two lives before but yet he still keep the passion to learn proper lifesaving skills. So happy that I can make some new friends here.

Back in USM, gonna study now, for my last paper in Chemistry. Yea, this is the last.

Yay!! Life is tough, but I'm tougher. Aza aza fighting!!!!

 (Feel so Zzzz now )

Dear Heavenly Father,

Your thoughts are not my thoughts, neither are my ways your ways,
As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are your ways higher than my ways
and your thoughts than my thoughts.

Teach me to have trust in you with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding.

Lord, your way are tough but it worth it.

In Jesus name, Amen.